So, my mother plans on cutting the internet. WELP. You do that. Even though I won’t be playing games anymore, doesn’t change what is gonna happen. I am still gonna be in my room. Still not going to talk to you. Like, if you want love and affection, by all means, do whatever cause it’s not gonna do jack shit.
Seriously, not becoming LTG has killed me. So hard. I am not even doing anything anymore. I don’t have any change in my days. I have lost 4 pounds over two months of not not eating much. I have raged so much more now. My sister pisses me off so much when she asks for me. I feel even more pissed off when someone in class keeps yapping. I am just trying to cry myself to sleep. It just feels so great. My day is going to reset again when I go to school. I can barely stand waking up. I just feel rage.
I am just in a pit right now. Just got to wait until graduation. A year and some months. Then I can do whatever I please.
My love hate relationship in Trig is so amazing. I get more pissed off by not putting in that one equal sign, docking off 0.5 points. I WANTED A PERFECT SCORE GOD DAMN IT. WHY MUST I HAVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT THAT DAMN EQUAL SIGN. I WOULD FEEL BETTER FAILING THE TEST.
My mother seriously needs to stop nagging me to do stuff. You are too late to intervene with what I do in life. My fucking gosh. I understand you want me to do better, but fuck off, you crashed everything, I don’t need your guidance.
This college research paper is hitting me in the feels. Shit. Why must I feel like the college you go to dictates who you are. It’s practically a war between my pride and what is realistic.
MY HEART. IS LIKE BEING CRUSHED. TOO MUCH LOVEY DOVEY THINGS. IT’S DRAINING MY WRETCHED SOUL.